Nerve Ending

week 53

Nerve Ending
by Shea Stanley

I thought of you today 
The sky yours 
Easy to think of you now
Icy fingers
Paint water sky 

I pretend to like the grey
What I mean is
It’s in my bones 
What I mean is 
Praise me

I forget to tell people 
Always think they can see the mist 
Still resting on my scalp
Thought you were still stuck 
To my shoe

People ask if I miss you 
If I liked you 
How to answer 
Do I like my lungs? 
I need them to breathe 

I don’t think of you often 
I don’t think of my skin 
I don’t think of the air 
I’m just enveloped 
Covered 

So when I do think of you 
Panic!
Like I left the stove on 
Like I missed a birthday 
Like I forgot where I put you 

But I thought of you today 
And I felt it 
Cement under my feet
Ticking clock in the clouds 
You’re in my bones